Another beautiful story of adoption in South Africa……The Miracle of Mia.
Are you looking for information about adoption in South Africa. Read this inspirational story below to see how it worked out for this couple.
“Our journey for children started 5 and 1/2 years ago. Our infertility journey was a 5 year battle and they were the worst 5 years of my life.
If you have ever suffered infertility then you will understand the feelings I am about to share. Infertility attacks us as women at the core of our being. We were made by God to bear children – this is our primary goal and our core reason for being. So, when we cannot produce offspring our very essence for living is attacked and questioned. Often, during our 5 year struggle, I just wanted to die. There were many days that I was disappointed that I had woken up. At times I even prayed that God would take my life whilst I slept, and I was angry with Him when I woke again the next morning. I felt useless and a waste of space because I couldn’t bear children. Yes, I was successful in my business, I provided for my husband, I had a nice house, we lived a nice lifestyle, but those were all external things that gave me no joy at all. So, on the outside it all looked dandy – but on the inside I was a mess.
I found a picture once of a burnt tree – a tree still standing in the ground, but black from the fire, no more signs of life in it, not bearing any leaves or fruit, just a dead tree. I felt like this tree – burnt, withered and for all intents and purpose: dead. The only reason the tree still stood in the ground was because of its roots. So, even when I was in that deep dark hole, I still recognised that my roots were still intact and that they were rooted in God – even though at the time God was not feeding me (or so it felt).
Our infertility journey started with a miscarriage and to this day I still do not know why God took away my one and only chance of my own biological child. It is an answer I will not get in this life – but beware God when I get to heaven one day it will be the first question I ask. (The second is: why are men so different from women?). The longer we struggled to fall pregnant again the more depressed I became about my loss and the emotion of grief overtook me.
Yet – we continued to the best of our ability to make a pregnancy happen. We endured 2 IVF cycles, 2 AI’s and I had major surgery all in the hope that God would bless us with a miracle. The doctor was not convinced I could fall pregnant naturally, but he did not believe in my God of miracles. But God did not give us that miracle. And the longer He took the more grief stricken I became. The grief dominated my every thought and deed. I presented to everyone this all together exterior, but I felt totally black inside. I woke with a heavy darkness on my shoulders, I felt like I was walking around stooped under the weight of this burden. I was a terrible friend, wife and daughter because I had no emotional reserve to give. My job depleted me even more emotionally and I was running on less that empty. I wanted to run away from it all – from my husband, my job, God, my life.
Then one day – God worked, and unbeknown to us His plan started to take shape.
In February 2011 my husband and I had just completed our 2nd failed IVF attempt. And being a very practical, I-will-make-it-happen-for-myself sort of person I promptly decided 2 weeks after the failed result that we should adopt. We knew nothing about adoption in South Africa so, off the adoption agency I dragged my husband for an information session on adoption. Well – little did I expect my emotional response! I walked out of there a crying mess, thinking: I can’t do this. So we went home and I realised that I had still not mourned the grief of my infertility, and that I was in no emotional place to adopt. And God knew all of this. His master plan working itself out slowly.
In May 2011 my group of girlfriends in God (whom I meet up with once a month to pray) layed their hands on me and prayed. They just had a sense that May was my month and that I needed prayer to release me from the black darkness of grief that dominated my very being. So, on that cold May night, God started his path of restoration. Also in May, unbeknown to me (or anyone else), God conceived Mia.
Life carried on as normal but slowly, through prayer and a very helpful book about shattered dreams God started peeling the layers of darkness off me. Then in June 2011 God released me from my grief in one almost miraculous swoop. We were away for our yearly weekend to Barrydale and through the book God told me in no uncertain terms that He has taken my shattered dream and made a way for a better dream. I felt like a cloud, like I was able to stand up straight again and I was not dominated by my grief. My burnt tree started getting water from its roots. I got the most amazing sense that God had a plan – I did not know what that plan was, but He had a plan for us. I was not sure if it meant biological children, but I knew it was a plan for children. And still, little Mia was growing nicely in her biological mother’s womb.
Then, in July 2011, I had major surgery to my uterus, ovaries and bowel. I had 2 surgeons and the operation lasted 3 hours. The outcome was bleak and the doctors did not have any hope of natural pregnancy, even after the major operation. But, as I said earlier, the doctors did not believe in my God. So we persisted with more fertility treatment. Still, unbeknown to us, little Mia was developing well and growing into our little baby.
Then in November 2011 I had my last fertility attempt. I was lying on the procedure room table and the doctor was performing his task. As I lay there I cried and cried and cried. I told the doctor: I like you, but I hate this place (the infertility clinic). I thought to myself: what am I doing here? Why am I still walking this road of pain? I can’t do this anymore. I have had ENOUGH! Needless to say – that last procedure did not work and with that negative result my husband and I called it a day on fertility treatment. We had a good December holiday, not timing our sex patterns, eating too much, cycling a lot and not doing anything right in order to fall pregnant. At this time Mia was into her 7th month of gestation, and I am sure God was looking down at us from heaven thinking: you silly fools. You spent a year trying to fall pregnant whilst I have got your little baby growing very nicely, thank you very much.
He probably was saying: go to Mauritius you fools instead of wasting your money on fertility treatments, I already have your baby sorted. How foolish we humans can be!
Then in early January 2012 (now Mia is already 8 months in gestation) my husband and I sat down and had a long discussion about adoption in South Africa. We both answered some questions individually and then compared the answers. The questions were: 1. Do we want children? And, 2. Do those children have to be our own biological flesh and blood? We both unanimously answered yes to no.1 and no to no.2 So, adoption it was.
We took a while to get all the forms signed and filled in. We had started renovations on our house, so that took most of our time, and the forms were quite a performance to fill in. Rightly so, the adoption agency wanted to know everything about us, even just about what colour underwear we wore! So, it was only toward the end of January/ beginning of February that we finally sent our forms off to the adoption agency.
Then on 16 February 2012, our little Mia was born. She only became known to the agency on that day. We arrived at the agency on 27 February 2012 for our first interview. We were slow to send in our forms and Mia only became know to the agency on 16 February. The timing was perfect. There were just too many coincidences for it to be coincidental. God had it all planned and timed perfectly.
After the whole interview process and home visit, we finally got the call on 30 March 2012 to say that we were approved for adoption. So, in inverted comas – we were ‘pregnant’. Ironically, 30 March was my due date for the one and only pregnancy I ever had. Weird? I think not, more like: God.
Then 6 weeks later (which again, is also a miracle in itself to wait such a short time), we were telephoned to say that we could collect our little girl on 17 May 2012. WOW!
Now – here we are 10 days later, the proud parents of a baby girl that was destined for us all along. God had been working His plan for that last 5 years. His plan was always for us to have little Mia as our daughter and He knew just when the right time would be for us and for her to start our lives together. So, after 5 years of heart ache and pain, I finally see that God is at work in our lives. He seemed distant and quiet to me, yet He had it all planned from the beginning. The last 5 years will always hold a painful memory and my heart will always bear a black spot for the grief of infertility. But, I am no longer dominated by this grief. I am exhilarated by the knowledge that God is at work in my life and that He always had a plan for us. He never forsaked us and He loved us so much that He gave us the greatest blessing we have ever had on this earth: the Miracle of Mia.”
“I have seen you in the sanctuary and beheld your power and your glory. Because your love is better than life, my lips will glorify you.” Psalm 63 v2-3 Mia in Hebrew means: wishing for a child.
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